Time does not bring relief

Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side;
And last year’s leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year’s bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide.
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go, - so with his memory they brim
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, “There is no memory of him here!”
And so stand stricken, so remembering him.

• by Edna St. Vincent Millay

• Pg. 151, An Unquiet Mind, ISBN - 978-0-679-76330-7, Kay Redfield Jamison

Expressions of Pain in the Eyes

Although fascinated, I was primarily frightened by the strangeness of the patients, as well as by the perceptible level of terror in the room; even stronger than the terror, were the expressions of pain in the eyes of the women. Some part of me instinctively reached out, and in an odd way understood this pain, never imagining that I would someday look in the mirror and see their sadness and insanity in my own eyes.

• Pg. 25, An Unquiet Mind, ISBN – 978-0-679-76330-7, Kay Redfield Jamison

Quote From Bertrand Russell on Life

“Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. These passions, like great winds, have blown me hither and thither, in a wayward course, over a great ocean of anguish, reaching to the very verge of despair.
I have sought love, first, because it brings ecstasy – ecstasy so great that I would often have sacrificed all the rest of life for a few hours of this joy. I have sought it, next, because it relieves loneliness–that terrible loneliness in which one shivering consciousness looks over the rim of the world into the cold unfathomable lifeless abyss. I have sought it finally, because in the union of love I have seen, in a mystic miniature, the prefiguring vision of the heaven that saints and poets have imagined. This is what I sought, and though it might seem too good for human life, this is what–at last–I have found.
With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of men. I have wished to know why the stars shine. And I have tried to apprehend the Pythagorean power by which number holds sway above the flux. A little of this, but not much, I have achieved.
Love and knowledge, so far as they were possible, led upward toward the heavens. But always pity brought me back to earth. Echoes of cries of pain reverberate in my heart. Children in famine, victims tortured by oppressors, helpless old people a burden to their sons, and the whole world of loneliness, poverty, and pain make a mockery of what human life should be. I long to alleviate this evil, but I cannot, and I too suffer.
This has been my life. I have found it worth living, and would gladly live it again if the chance were offered me.”
— Betrand Russell

Quote From Caspar Weinberger

“This is a lonely life. You make real enemies but few real friends. It exhausts a man in body and spirit.”

– Caspar Willard “Cap” Weinberger
August 18, 1917 – March 28, 2006
1995, page 304, ISBN 0-345-40728-8

I Am Fully Aware… 2012-1005

I am fully aware that there are people out there who are hurting more than I am and with more reason to hurt, but their pain does not diminish my pain, and my pain does not stop my empathy.

– Cobalt TiNor

I Am Not Saying… 2012-0930

I am not saying that God does not exist and I am not saying that God cannot, but since God can lift us from the “fatigue of despair” and “transform dark and desolate valleys” why hasn’t he?

– Cobalt TiNor

Just About Anyone Can… 2012-0911

Just about anyone can share in your happiness, that is easy to fake, but often times it takes a real friend to share in your struggle and help you out of that struggle.

– Cobalt TiNor